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I was catching up with a friend of mine when it hit me just how much clearing and cleansing I have done in past two months. Not just with my energy, but my life as a whole.

I have this tendency to go hermit when catalystic seasons of life come for me. I do this for several reasons, but mostly because I prefer to hone in on myself during these times in order to make the best decision for myself, my child, and my life moving forward. I am not someone who feels the need to seek outside opinions or advice because I wholeheartedly believe that if I am one with the Creator then the answers I am looking for can be found within me. Not everyone fucks with this way of thinking though… some people are very understanding and respectful while others show their selfish nature during the process.

This year’s major changes occurred in the weeks surrounding eclipse season as well as major full moons. First came the purging of the exhausting brand ambassador job, then the closet purge that cleared stagnant energy I hadn’t considered previously, followed by several cord cuttings (two being major karmic partners), selling things that no longer served my best interest (mainly from their energetic ties to the past relationships or circumstances), and an abundance of time in nature to ground myself back to Source. Each of these purges happened naturally as each day unfolded rather than in a premeditated way. I wasn’t planning on leaving my job, it just became obvious one day that I needed to- so I made the call to let them know I was no longer on the team. I didn’t plan on clearing out my wardrobe over three days time, I started by looking at what I could sell to make some quick cash and then decided it was probably as good as time as ever to finally start that capsule wardrobe I kept putting off. I wasn’t thinking about cutting cords with those karmic partners until one day I asked myself why I still kept attachments to those two clowns who fumbled me when they never deserved my affection in the first place.

Time in nature though… that was actually always on the daily plan because, for as long as I can remember, sitting or laying outside is the quickest way to make myself feel better and boost my mood while increasing my focus.

Each step happened without me thinking too much about it, except while I was in the immediate situation itself. It wasn’t until I was catching up with Allison that I consciously took in how much of my life I changed in 35 days. There came a point in the conversation where she told me she was sorry for how things unfolded with my previous job because she knew how much I had loved it initially, but I told her that I wasn’t sorry at all. I felt like I was being tested to see if I truly was the woman I claimed to be who possesses unwavering faith in herself no matter what insane waves of change life throws at her… and it turns out I am that woman. There have definitely been stressful moments where I questioned myself or cried or screamed because leaps of faith can be scary when you don’t see physical results right away and have another whole person to take care of, but I am so proud of myself for never diverting from the path of faithfulness while embarking on this journey.

35 days. That is literally all the time that has passed- I didn’t realize until I counted the days just a few minutes ago. 35 days is literally the blink of an eye when you think about it and I have made magnificent, major changes. 35 days later I feel lighter than ever with more sustainable habits and a lot less baggage. 35 days.

Now I have significantly less people I interact with, my energy is directed exactly where I want it to be rather than being used to cater to others, and I am genuinely happier to exist amongst the rest of society as opposed to feeling the constant need to hide from everyone. I am inspired and driven while carving my own path into this existence. Most importantly- my energy is now exclusive as fuck to obtain and that will remain the standard moving forward. I didn’t keep in contact with a lot of people after I left my cannabis industry job; those who remain are people that TRULY inspire me and have earned my trust. The inner circle is on lockdown now because my energy is not for everyone and those who get the privilege to know me have earned their place in my life.

Damn, I am pretty impressed with myself. I wasn’t planning for any of this, but I am so eternally grateful that it happened to me because I have never felt more aligned than I do in this very moment.