I recently stumbled across a new to me band, Bad Suns, and lucked into a stellar repertoire of albums spanning the past eleven years. They fall somewhere between alternative, indie, and pop- my favorite sweet spot! Their song Mystery Girl coerced me onto their band page and now Slow Karma is consistently on repeat. Thankfully, I can blame my autistic nature for the loop!
The lyrics to Slow Karma seem to have stuck to my soul and have embedded themselves into my existence. The melody alone makes you want to shake your ass all day, but to actually read the words penned with a full understanding of the feeling that the impossibly catchy lyrics and beat reverberate… you would have the song on loop too, don’t fucking lie to yourself or me!! Maybe it’s my delusional belief that I am somehow living inside an indie film as the main character, but the song definitely feels as if it were written just for me. It could have been- depends on how deep you want to get into the theory of ‘oneness‘ and each of us being a different reflection of the same One. Either way, I am eternally grateful because it seemed to have saved my mental from going off the deep end during a depressive episode where I questioned my faith in myself.
The whole chorus has become part of my DNA helix; yes, I am aware that the chorus is supposed to be the most reel you in part of any song but these lyrics just hit different within my existence.
What goes up must come down
I lost my balance in the clouds
I’ll turn my luck back around
Oh, I’m still searching for some higher ground
Like karma, I’m on the way
Like karma, I’m running late
I’ll turn my luck back around
Oh, I’m still searching for some higher ground
This is the first time in my adult life I feel truly seen by lyrics in a way that my teenage-self felt seen by Anberlin lyrics- with understanding and a sense of peace knowing that maybe I am not alone in my mental as much as I thought I was. It is easy to tell someone that they are not alone in this life, but can we be fucking honest for a hot second here… regardless of relationship status or who you share a home with, each of us goes to sleep and rises the next day alone within our individual minds. That state of awareness can be overwhelming and somewhat crippling. Yet, music has this uncanny way of rendering itself into our existence via the mind and can shape our mental outcomes, thus shaping our experienced realities (cough, cough… this probably has something to do with the music industry being such a devious conglomerate).
There is comfort to be found in these lyrics, especially for those of us who tend to feel as if finding our footing is harder than it need be (regardless of how hard we try) because life keeps throwing wild ass curve balls our way. Those of us in this group have a tendency to fall and fail repeatedly before conjuring some form of understanding. Then once we do begin to understand, heal from the chains of the past, and attempt to move upward it is as if there is this force that strives to keep us locked within our lowest realms regardless of our healing or growth. Meanwhile, those who have done terrible things, inspired our less than becoming behaviors, or have kicked us while we were down seem to continue to move throughout this life without any repercussions and all we can do is have faith that one day justice will prevail for those of us who have done the actual fucking work to improve. If you have never experienced this cycle then consider yourself among the luckiest alive because it truly is not what I would consider a good time.
Maybe we aren’t supposed to find our footing though. Maybe that’s why we continue to search for higher ground, a place we can only reach if we fly.
We couldn’t learn how to fly without falling first.
Karma sometimes feels as if she is taking her sweet time to reach us, but maybe we need that time to grow our understanding in a deeper way.
There is also a real chance that the higher ground we are constantly searching for can only be reached when we shift our perspective, which only happens when we decide to turn our luck rather than falling for the lie that our luck is out of our control.
So yeah- this song seemed to have found me when I needed it most and has shifted my mental in a way that is tricky to put into words because it is more of a feeling than anything. I highly recommend you look up the song, there is a solid chance you may find your own solace within the lyrics.
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